For several years now, I've been hitting a Christmas-giving-wall and I've been drilling deep into why I'm struggling. Here are some of the answers I've found for myself.

When receiving a gift, even if it's a small batch of handmade note cards or a jar full of homegrown pickled peppers, the gift feels so meaningful. It's plenty.

I'm certain my discontent feelings have also been fueled by my habit of watching the tv show Alaska: The Great Frontier. Each Thanksgiving/Christmas episode shows their close-knit family gathering together and exchanging thoughtful gifts made by their own hands, along with dishing up food that has been patiently grown on their land.

So beginning last year in the Fall, I took weeks to make my hand-sewn kitchen towel Christmas gifts. I used fun coordinating fabrics, many of which were old remnants I had saved, and poured hours into each gift. I'm not going to lie, my back ached, my fingers would get tender and there were several times where I wondered why I didn't just go down to the local kitchen store and slap my debit card on the counter. Just because it's handmade doesn't mean it's easier or cheaper. I've found that so far it's the opposite.

But it's worth it.

This year my gifts will be my ceramic bowls, but I'm telling you right now, I only have nine so there's not many to go around. Because my number is a bit short for all the gifts I wish to give, I'm working on something a little more simpler to fill the gift gap.

Now don't get me wrong. You've never seen me turn down a gift from Anthropologie, but perhaps if you're feeling the same as me, Christmas can be a little more intentional.

Want some more gift giving ideas?

I created these cards last year. So before you go speeding out the door on Black Friday or Cyber Monday, you might consider one of these ideas for your family.

Your humble maker of things that still loves to shop,

p.s. Want some handmade inspiration? I created a Pinterest board with all kinds of ideas: https://www.pinterest.com/megclouse/handmade-gifts/